I choose the Kurt Cobain suicide note because I felt someone of his popularity should be harder to break down because we really don’t know what goes through celebrities minds. Even though Idon’t think that his super stardom had anything to do with his suicide. I don’t know much about Kurt Cobain I just feel it is going to fun to give my opinions on why he decided to commit suicide. Kurt Cobain writes in his suicide note that he has hated all people in general since the age of seven. That was the same that his father left him. We discussed a lot of things in class and most things that were negative stemmed from childhood and for him was the hatred of people because he hated father.
When he was growing up he most have seen lots of his friends and they were with their father and that really hurt Kurt. I don’t listen to his music but I got some lyrics from some of his songs and they words he uses to describe how angry he is with his father is very noticeable even with that strong rock beat. During some of songs he sings very openly about suicide so that meant that he most of felt that way inside if he were to sing those words. During some of the information that I gathered it talks about how he liked to write some of this songs himself.
Know after his death people are starting to think that the songs he wrote we based on him. In his note he says that he needs to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm he had as a child. I don’t know what he means but I think it refers to drugs and when he says numb Ithink that he means high. Then he talks about how he simply loves people to much. This all goes back to his father not being their during his younger years.
He loves people so much but it bothers him that he didn’t have it. Even in his last couple years of life I think that if he were to see a son with his father it would bother him because it made him think back to his childhood. Ithink he had those thoughts running threw his head a lot. Another reason why I think that he killed himself was his wife. I don’t think that she drove him to kill himself she just was the last saw he couldn’t take it anymore.
The reason I feel this way is I read some articles and they marriage was very shaky with quite a few visits from the police. Know one really knows what those fights were over but they were both big on drugs so most of their fights took place when they were high. Then I start to think about his daughter and wouldn’t that bring him happiness try to fix your problems from the past. I couldn’t find out for sure if he was going to some type of therapy but I would assume that he was with the problems he had. When he said that it was better to burn out then to fade away I think he was trying to say the band was having some kind of problems and that also could have been why he decided to take his life.
He meant that its better to just disappear then slowly go away. The suicide not in the book is shortened I got the full note on the computer and at the end he says his good-byes he tells his wife Courtney that to be strong for their baby Frances. Then goes on by saying that life will be so much more happier without him. When he killed himself he locked himself in the room and shot himself in the head.
This to me makes me think that he did want to kill himself for some kind of reason and not he didn’t try to make it some big suicide that people could have witnessed. I don’t understand why he made those comments about their child’s life being better if he wasn’t around because just a few lines before he says he loves people to much. Then why would their child be better of without him who can give the child the lov in that he was never gave by his father. I think he might be obsessive because he says he loves people so much and maybe he didn’t want to see their child grow up. It also could be that his wife was cheating on him and he couldn’t take it. Know one will really ever know because they had a weird relationship and that is proven just on the way she reacted to his death.
How does she call him names and mock his note after her husband just killed himself. That just could be how they love each other though I really don’t know. I would like to be both of their psychiatrists to examine the two that would be interesting Would even do it free of charge. Their are so many different things you could think about this but we really won’t ever know why he killed himself. In my mind I think it’s because of his father and he didn’t know how to deal with it..